i havent been seeing those that are normally online come online, and it's disturbing plus depressing. and it's the school holidays.
i went for service this sunday, and except for Sy rogers, i hated everyone elses faces and esp her weird expressions, no wait, she didnt give me any! call me paranoid but i insist im not. you may think im an asshole but i just cannot bring myself to commit everything ive got just to not make you mad at me, or just because you have pressure from the upper class ppl! i admit im not trying hard enough, but i really am extremely sensitive to your facial expression, which by the way tells the whole story. and you have to end my happy streak!
my sister is of no use either, bad habits i have been tolerating patiently.
1. slamming open the door without closing it again
2.being rude to my parents
3.calling me mean names
4.treating lucky like shes a gem
5.deleting my music
6.walking into Chanel and YSL and Prada with fbt shorts
7.using the same toilet as me
and im so in the mood to be emo right now,
went to CCAB today, for the ITF umpiring course. which is a total bore, everyone's just going becuase the cert is gonna be from the london headquaters. im so sorry because the lecturer was extremely nice. Just that i couldn't help but fall asleep countless times. then i thought i saw rugby players at the field, half naked, revealing their revolting giantic bodies. at least it made me drift away from what i have been disturbed by ever since sunday.
great, now MTVs playing the shitty avril lavigne new song, which pisses me off more. im going to bed

oh, and im sorry for being irritating and mean. i just had to go punch my character and irritate myself.